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10 December 2006 @ 01:57 pm
so..........  
Wow I haven't written anything in here for forever. My last entry was so lame that I had to delete it.sigh.

Anyway, I cant even describe how happy I am for this semester to be over. It has been the worst yet and I hope it doesn't ever get worse than this. I was a Speech Pathology and Audiology major, but I decided to swtich to Human Development and Family studies because I absolutely HATE Speech Path. I had to take this Applied Phonetics class and it is the hardest and most boring class I have ever taken. If I had to sit through more classes like that and go to grad school so sit through even more terrible ones, I would probably go insane and kill myself. It was horrible. So basically this semester was trying to figure out what the hell I actually want to do with my life, but I still haven't really fully decided. I changed to HDFS because my faculty partner for teaching orientation graduated with that and she loved it so I thought I would give it a try. I think I want to focus on youth development and be a preschool/kindergarden teacher. Little kids are so much fun and are so happy and carefree. I need that happiness and carefree attitude in life back, and I really love working with kids. They make me laugh and smile. So we will see how it goes.

I am still working as a server at the Roadhouse, but I was informed yesterday that I am on very thin ice. Apparently I have messed up a lot of credit cards or something and if I do it again I will be gone. I think I found what I was doing wrong so I should be ok, but it still scares the shit out of me because I cannot lose this job. I dont know why I have been messing it up because I have been there for a few months now, and it really makes me feel like a dumbass. I think my bosses think I am a total idiot. Well, I guess I kinda am in some ways. I just overthink things too much there because I dont want to mess up but I end up fucking up anyway. Serving is so hard and maybe I'm just not meant to do it, but I like my job because of the people I work with and I make pretty good money most of the time. I dont know, I just hope I dont fuck up again.

I have been doing a lot of research for study abroad programs and I am pretty sure I am going to do one in Prague, Czech Republic. I have always wanted to go there and that is my heritage, so I really want to check it out. It is supposed to be beautiful there and I have heard nothing but great things. The only problem is that I dont know when I will do it. I want to next spring but I really want to live with katie, cailey, and some people next year but if I go next spring I probably wont be able to because it will be in the middle of the lease. I will probably end up getting shafted out of living with them of course though because there are so many people who want to live together now. I just dont know but I/ we have to figure all this out really soon.

A new relationship may be budding for me now. It is exciting, but I still dont really know if I am over Brian enough to get into another relationship now. I just really want to take it slow for now and I am enjoying how it is right now.All I can do is wait and see what happens.

Well back to studying for finals. Man I just want to fast forward to them being over and for break. I cant wait.

I should probably stop smoking the ganja. That is probably why I am scatterbrained and crazy lately. I doubt it.
 
 
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Dan: 3/4danbigler on December 10th, 2006 09:32 pm (UTC)
Eh, deciding what to do with your life is overrated, I don't recommend it until absolutely necessary. ;)

Hey, good luck finishing your exams, hope you have a good break!
calendar girl: pretty girl is..love_is_toxic on December 11th, 2006 02:37 am (UTC)
gah. fuck finals
just think of the coolest living situation ever for next year
and somehow finals will be over soon and we'll somehow survive.
good luck with your tests! i'm sure i'll see you soon nugget.